Coping with the sickness.

With the awful morning sickness I have..for the forth time I have come up with some ways that make my life a little better.



Showers! anytime I can get a shower in I do. If I could live in my shower without getting pruned I would, they ALWAYS make me feel better.




The only shampoo I can use without it making me sick. Renpure Organics. I love you so.





and that leads me to Aveeno Body wash, they are the best and have pretty much no sent, and no sent is wonderful to me at this time!





My hoddies. I need them to live. If I am in a store, at another persons house, our need to change my son My face goes right in my hoddie and all I smell is ME! I smell good so this is a HUGE life saver.





MY PILLOWS! I really do not think I need to explain this one, everyone loves having their own pillow. :)


and along with watermelon sour patch kids,homemade chicken broth, The smell of my childrens hair, Abe's baby breath he still has, and clean clothes and sheet, and of course BLEACH. These things make the day to day better for me while I feel like I am dying with this stupid morning sickness.

Proud!

So my baby boy Abram is 11 months old, and he is having his first and hopefully LAST surgery of his life on March 1st of this year. I am relived that it will be done and over with and that he will have normal sized testicles and no problems in the future with the hydroseal or with hernias. So anyways HE WALKED TODAY!!!! WOOOOOO!!!!!! We did not think he would take his first steps till after his operation, and today after dinner there he goes! hahaha He took about 6-10 steps with those fat, flat,flinstone feet of his and we are so happy and full of pride! Our little man proved everyone wrong who thought he could not take a step, I am so happy for him! He is even sick and he still rocked it! I am so in love with my boy and need to brag! no more walker for you!!!!!!!

Knocked up Pt. 4

Being pregnant four times now you would think I would be use to morning sickness...Wellll I am NOT. I HATE IT, I wake up feeling hungover every morning, get up go down stairs, chug a glass of water so I can throw up easier without bile..cute huh. Run to the bathroom and puke for about 10 mins, come out to a screaming needy Abram with an awful smelly pamper, change it...puke all over again. and then off to make breakfast for all the kids puking while doing it. and that is going to be my life for the next 2-3 months also with sore bones that hurt to touch and being dizzy non stop. ughhhhh I think at times I would rather be dead.


It is so insane how morning/all day and night sickness can knock you right on your ass. only thing that gets me though is knowing I am doing everything I can for this unborn and trying my best to keep up with the three I already have. I am an emotional wreck on top of this and cry about any and everything...my poor kids. lol I can not wait for this to pass so I can feel better, or watch a show without balling my eyes out. On the plus side I have had four different doctors tell me the more morning sickness you have the smarter the child! So I guess that is the plus to all this sickness.

Things that must be accomplished!

1. We have to find a house. That is at the TOP of this list. and I would like it to happen by April -May. NO later. but time will tell...

2. I need to learn how to drive and not just parking lots. Real driving.

3.We need to trade in our Volvo and get a Mini Van. "sigh" I love our car,amazing in snow,mud,ect. best cars ever..so sad.

4.I need to find a job. (I hate this one the most.)

5.I also need to start thinking about what kind of schooling I would like. Pick up some online classes.

6.I need to leave my stresses from the day before BEHIND. I have a hard time with that.

7. I want to have alone time with each child everyday so they can feel extra important.

8. I want to get Abram in his own bed and less attached from my hip and more independent.

9. WE ARE getting each and everyone of our loans paid off!

10. I also want to get back on track with date night with my husband, like we use to do before the baby was born.

11. That bring me to, I need to stop putting so much pressure on him, he is only one person and he is doing the best he can.

12. I also need to remind myself that I am only one person, and I am doing the very best I can.



Well I am sure I did not listed everything, but most important things I did....

I hate jay z and beyonce.

They suck! They were voted "Richest couple" of 2009. Oh I wonder why?! Cause the NEVER give any of there money away to ANY charity EVER! They help no causes,It no joke makes me sick. I think if you are a celebrity and you are making over 6 figures, yeah you better be giving money away, New Orleans NOTHING, Haiti NOTHING, 9/11 NOTHING and anything else that has happened they do nothing to help out, when Brad pitt and angelina jolie give out MILLIONS to help cause and other countries, they suck as human beings and I will NEVER buy anything they are trying to sell, I will never watch some sucky movie Beyonce is in cause the bitch can not act anyways. and Jay z go back in hiding your raps are lame and played out, you are NO thug, you are a wannabe and you most likely lived in a all white neighborhood. YOU BOTH SUCK AND I HOPE YOU GO BROKE IN 2010.

Random Facts

1.I am OBSESSED with Jersey Shore. as a matter of fact I am watching it now. Do not hate. It is the shit.

2.I count the days till my brother comes home from war at least 10 times a day.

3. Some days I think I can not handle my life and every thing in it. and other day I feel like I can handle anything.

4.Right now I need God in my life more than ever.

5.would describe my beliefs about my religion as a mixture of Christianity and Judaism. and I love to learn more.

6. If I could wear a dress every day of the year, I would. Nothing is more comfortable or more versatile.

7. I make a list every day of my life because I love the satisfaction of crossing things off the list.

8. I la la la love lady gaga! she is a freak wanna-be for sure, but I love her music and it always makes me happy.

9.I love to cook, but hate all the smells of cooking unless it is baking, totally different story.

10.my mother and father are still to this day the best parents to me in the world and I could not be more thankful they are in my life.

11.I am about to have the biggest life change ever and not sure if I am ready.

He does not need sleep I guess?

I take so many sleeping pictures of Abram, cause it is very very rare he sleeps. Do not get me wrong nights are getting better, he sleeps almost all the way though (unless he is having a growth spurt and drinks 5-7 bottles.) but in the day and trying to get him to nap is really ridiculous, it takes him forever to fall asleep than he will wake up no joke ten minutes later fully refreshed and ready to go. It is driving me pretty much insane. and when he in the stages of "nap time" he HAS to be looking right at me. I can not clean, move, nothing till he fall a sleep, this may be cute and adorable buttttt he is my third child and my girls need me too and him not taking naps like every other 10 month old child is killing me. I have friends and family whose children nap until they are 3-4 years old! Now granted my girls stopped napping at Isabel 18 months and Lillian about 2. and Abram has NEVER had a day where he takes more than 1-2 SHORT short naps. I hope this ends and he just want to nap, I would even take him doing it for a week. Good this he is so beautiful and melts me with his love for me and those big brown eyes<3

Isabel's 1st hair cut...6 years later!

My first born Isabel,had her hair cut today.We have talked about it for the last two or three months,we both were not ready and than this morning after breakfast That she needed her hair cut TODAY and I was to call the hair solon while she was in school. :) So I guess she was ready! This is her very first time going to get anything done to her hair, She still has..had all her baby hair. sigh. but she loves it and not that much was taken off, she is as beautiful as ever and I am happy she loves it and I did not cry.

Gut feeling

That gut feeling we get, how it never ever fails you!? It can be such a great thing and such a cruse, sometimes I just want to believe the lie, and live in this fake world where I have no stress and nothing heavy on my plate, I know this all is all just a bunch of blabber of run on sentence's but I know what I am talking and rambling about so that is really all that matters right? lol I just wish I knew what was going to happen? What I am going to do and can do right now? I am so unsure and that feeling is so unsettling. my mind is forever racing and I stress myself to the point where I am sick, I just feel like I am spinning out of control and no one can stop it....not me and that is what scares me..and it all started with that "gut feeling"That feeling that kicks you and drops you to your knees.... when will I know more? I guess when I am supposed to.......

I love Randy Travis.

What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus
What can make me whole again?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

Oh precious is that flow that makes me white as snow
No other fount I know
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

What can wash away my sins?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus
What can make me whole again?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

Nothing but the blood of Jesus
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

Pictures rule my life.

Plain and simple they REALLY do, I love taking pictures, it clams me down haha makes me happy inside I love pictures, pretty much anything to do with them, art in a beautiful form.

Accident prone.

Two out of the three children I have are accident prone, Lillian my wild 4 year old, and Abram the ultra-needy 10 month old little man I have! Well I feel like every time I turn around one of them is on the floor crying with something wrong, Lillian the other day at my mother and fathers house was jumping back and forth from the ottoman to the couch. (something that she is NOT allowed to do, but does anyways) well instead on landing where she thought, she fell back and smashed her back on the draw from the wooden Barbie house we have, needless to say she was crying and now has a huge long bruise on her rib cage, and an hour later she was fighting over some binder of her older sister and some how got her finger caught and now has a HUGE blood blister...oh that child.....

As for Abe, just as crazy and clumsy, he smashed his head not once, not twice, not three times but 4 times in TWO hours ON everything in sight, and now has bruises on his noggin, and I hate it. I do not like my kids having bruises on there tiny little bodies and I do not like them in pain at all, just like any mother, but my word I not only have only wild, does not think about consequence child, now I have two. I should be thanking my lucky stars none of them have had to have stitches or a broken bone...but they are only 4 and 10 months..I guess only time will tell this those two rascals! lol

Same Old, same old...

I have been making Matt's lunch for 5 1/2 years now...I am sick of it and I have like 20 more years left. lol and I wait till last minute (my fault) when I want to just make Abram's bottle and pass out in my big comfy, perfect bed....but no I have to go into the cold kitchen and take out all the sandwich stuff, and condiments, I hate getting out condiments at 10pm. Make a mess and then wash and clean down the counters, not my idea of a good time, haha So I try to remind myself why I make this boring lunch..every night..Cause my husband is a hard worker and needs it like fuel. Soooooo as much as I hate making it, I would hate more him going with out or wasting money buying fast food... yup yup I am a really good wife. I should get some kind of lunch making medal.

I am off to make the dreaded lunch. This was a motivator in away! woooo for blogging gives you will power. hahaha I am way to sleepy. :) night night.

Intro of Sorts....

Why I am here... who I am and such. I will start off by saying my name is Nicole everyone calls me Nikki or Cole, I am 25 and have 3 beautiful children and wonderful hubby of 6 years. I want this Blog site cause I ALWAYS have sooo much on my mind and this is a wonderful way to let it out rant, moan, vent, stresses of the everyday housewife, things in my life I love such as the things my kids say or do, my married life, just everything. It will be perfect...